Friday, April 14, 2006
Thanks to everyone who has made my birthday so GREAT. My family, my family, my family... and my friends, you know who you are! =) I love you guys!
Anyway, really touched by my brother, he gave me a ruby pendant as a belated 21st and 22nd birthday present. And my sister who gave me a pig with a chain on it, with 3 hearts symbolizing me, my sister and my brother. *tears*
On a more depressing note, i have so many assignments, reports, presentations and posters to prepare for. Somebody kill me!
I am nothing without you; 11:32 PM
(0) comments
Saturday, April 01, 2006

Thanks gals for making my Poly life so much more fun! You don't know how much you gals mean to me. =)
Happy April Fool's Day to everyone! Happy Birthday to Brian!
An Angel in Disguise by Corrine May
I woke up this morning feeling kind of blue
and i stumbled out of bed and
dragged my feet across the room
Right outside my front door was a rose
and a note that said 'Somebody loves you'
But out on the street it starts to pour
and before i get soaking wet,
A total stranger runs to give me
the jacket off his back
I turn around to thank him
But he waves me with a smile
I can hardly believe my eyes
He puts on a halo and starts to fly
Take a look at the ordinary
Dont need to look at paradise
You could be next to
an angel in disguise
I met a good friend for lunch
and we had a delicious meal
But i forgot to bring my wallet
I felt like an imbecile
But she was sweet, she gave me a treat and
Bought me a chicken sandwich
To take home for tea
But out of the street with nothing to eat
A man and his shopping cart go
Travelling to places
Collecting social graces
I give him my sandwich
and we chatter for a while
I see a rainbow wash over his eyes
He gives me his halo and
I start to fly
Take a look at the ordinary
Don't need to look for paradise
You could be next to an angel in disguise
Don't try to hide away from me
I know you're by my side
Take a look at the ordinary
Don't need to look for Paradise
You could be next to
an angel in disguise
Everyday can be legendary
Every minute, an endless surprise
You could be next to an angel in disguise
I woke up this morning
Feeling kind of new.
I am nothing without you; 12:31 AM
(0) comments
Saturday, March 25, 2006

My cousin's wedding!
(speech/poem dedication)
Dearest Clare,
Wonderful is the hour, sweet is the moment,
For two, for all, we hone this celebration.
Reminiscing the bright summer days of old,
Childhood secrets we shared, dreams of the future told.
A blink of the eye, a beat of the heart,
Love of a lifetime, wishing you both will never be apart.
Remember, with the anniversaries and wrinkles that you may earn,
The best gift in life is to love and be loved in return.
(How embarrasing, even as i was going up to read the speech, i fell! Sobz!)
More pictures will come as I get more from the photographer.
To be continued...
I am nothing without you; 10:42 PM
(0) comments
Thursday, March 23, 2006


Hydrotherapy is fun! CT's underwater camera is so cool. Feel like getting one for scuba diving too. Anway, tales from Australia will continue after this. And more photos will be added in the strip at the side, so do check them out! =)
I am nothing without you; 11:47 PM
(2) comments
Wednesday, March 22, 2006



The 4 wheel drive I moved around in!
Entree...
And dinner! Yummy!
I am nothing without you; 8:39 PM
(0) comments


This is the place where I lived, my cousin's and her fiance's home!
And this is their dog!
To be continued...
I am nothing without you; 4:52 PM
(0) comments
Tuesday, March 14, 2006

Kim Hee-sun? Who is that? Haha. As if! But this website is fun. Some of the celebrities do look like my friends, but mine, hmmm, they are just trying to make me happy!
I am nothing without you; 5:46 PM
(1) comments
Thursday, March 09, 2006
| Your EQ is |
140 50 or less: Thanks for answering honestly. Now get yourself a shrink, quick! 51-70: When it comes to understanding human emotions, you'd have better luck understanding Chinese. 71-90: You've got more emotional intelligence than the average frat boy. Barely. 91-110: You're average. It's easy to predict how you'll react to things. But anyone could have guessed that. 111-130: You usually have it going on emotionally, but roadblocks tend to land you on your butt. 131-150: You are remarkable when it comes to relating with others. Only the biggest losers get under your skin. 150+: Two possibilities - you've either out "Dr. Phil-ed" Dr. Phil... or you're a dirty liar. |
I am nothing without you; 8:11 PM
(2) comments
Wednesday, December 07, 2005
Ever dearest Po Po in heaven,
By your passing, we are all saddened,
But your spirit lives on within us,
Ans joy, we take, from old times past.
A heart so pure, a soul so kind,
Your love inspires and shines,
Even though your journey here has ended,
Your path to eternity has been founded.
To Po Po, thank you for everything.
I am nothing without you; 6:40 PM
(4) comments
Sunday, October 30, 2005
What hurts the most? For me, it is after dedicating myself to something, someone or a group of someones, and that which failed me. Its like gripping on to the blade of a knife. Holding on to something so dear, cutting you deeper as you hold on tighter. After all that has failed, all I need is a simple sorry, but no, it will only hurt me more. Soon, blood covers all the tears. As time pass, scars will cover the wound and the knife doesn't cut as deep. No more tears and blood.
I am nothing without you; 6:42 PM
(3) comments
Sunday, October 02, 2005


Brought my dog to the vet today for a jab. The means of transport and the means of holding him back from other bitches. See the drop of tear from his eye. His tail between his legs? He knows he is going for an injection.
I am nothing without you; 4:15 PM
(0) comments
Thursday, September 08, 2005
Everything does not seem to be going right. Its not going left either. Its going against me.
The drop is steep. The climb seems impossible.
The radio sets th mood:
Where is the moment we needed the most
You kick up the leaves and the magic is lost
They tell me your blue skies fade to grey
They tell me your passion's gone away
And I don't need no carryin' on
You stand in the line just to hit a new low
You're faking a smile with the coffee to go
You tell me your life's been way off line
You're falling to pieces everytime
And I don't need no carryin' on
Cause you had a bad day
You're taking one down
You sing a sad song just to turn it around
You say you don't know
You tell me don't lie
You work at a smile and you go for a ride
You had a bad day
The camera don't lie
You're coming back down and you really don't mind
You had a bad day
You had a bad day
Well you need a blue sky holiday
The point is they laugh at what you say
And I don't need no carryin' on
You had a bad day
You're taking one down
You sing a sad song just to turn it around
You say you don't know
You tell me don't lie
You work at a smile and you go for a ride
You had a bad day
The camera don't lie
You're coming back down and you really don't mind
You had a bad day
(Oh.. Holiday..)
Sometimes the system goes on the blink
And the whole thing turns out wrong
You might not make it back and you know
That you could be well oh that strong
And I'm not wrong
So where is the passion when you need it the most
Oh you and I
You kick up the leaves and the magic is lost
Cause you had a bad day
You're taking one down
You sing a sad song just to turn it around
You say you don't know
You tell me don't lie
You work at a smile and you go for a ride
You had a bad day
You've seen what you like
And how does it feel for one more time
You had a bad day
You had a bad day
Had a bad day
Had a bad day
Had a bad day
Had a bad day
Had a bad day
I am nothing without you; 7:07 PM
(2) comments
Sunday, August 28, 2005

A party to celebrate the beginning of a holiday never meant to be. A day at wala where we chose to vent our anger and disappointment. A day of aggressiveness.
I am nothing without you; 10:48 AM
(0) comments
Thursday, August 25, 2005

Sigh, school is getting into us. No time to write my overflowing thoughts.
I am nothing without you; 9:02 PM
(1) comments
Tuesday, August 16, 2005
I met a kid with cerebral palsy today. He said, "You are pretty, I love you." What is love?
Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.
Love is so perfect. Its too perfect. Where can i find such love? How can i love others this way? It is His love that overflows in me to do the same to others. I am not perfect.
But, love never fails.
I am nothing without you; 7:53 PM
(3) comments
Monday, August 01, 2005
Who am I, that the Lord of all the earth, would care to know my name, would care to feel my hurt...
Not because of who I am, but because of what you've done, not because of what i've done, but because of who you are.
For my psychology lectures, we were all made to pen down 20 I ams.
I am ...
I am ...
All my classmates had so many things to write. I couldn't write any. I had no identity.
This song answered all the 20 'I am's, and maybe even more.
I am nothing without you; 10:51 PM
(4) comments
Monday, May 30, 2005
Have you ever passed by a snail crossing the road? What would your first thought be if you saw a snail crawling in the middle of the road? What would you do, if anything? Would you be bothered that its there? Would you be bothered if a car came? What are the chances that it would get squashed by a car? Maybe it is a lucky snail? Or maybe the thickness of tyres are just too small compared to the size of the road.
I passed by a snail crossing the road today. First thought that crossed my mind was that this snail was going to die. Second thought was, I could help it. I could save its life. But, I didn't. I just could not be bothered to stop and pick it up, I was lazy, I didn't want my hands to get dirty, maybe i'll end up killing it instead... and a whole lot of other reasons. As I continued walking, something hit me. I am doing the same thing to the people around me.
I am nothing without you; 11:52 PM
(2) comments
Saturday, April 30, 2005
I want to really everyone for their prayers and God for making everything possible. God's grace has been upon me this whole week.
What it was supposed to be: 1. Presentation on below knee amputation on Friday. 2. Patients who speak every language but english and chinese. 3. Getting scolded for not being able to communicate with patients. 4. Fierce clinical teachers who will find any chance to review my flaws and scold me. 5. A lonely time at my clinical placement. 6. Long and straining journey all the way to the East.
|
How it was: 1. Presentation got postponed to my next placement which I will have more time and space to do. 2. Most of my patients spoke chinese! It is really highly unlikely that the past generation can understand mandarin. =) 3. Even when my patient spoke hokkien or malay, there was someone around who helped me translate. And if not, that patient is really nice and tries to understand my funny gestures. 4. Both my clinical educators are chrisitians and both are very understanding. They explained to me things i didn't know or asked me to go and research on it. But they did not scold me at all. They were indeed very encouraging. 5. I met my seniors, OT and PT both from NYP and we had lots of fun. It was heartwarming to see how God was working in their lives. 6. My father would fetch me to Queenstown and let me take a direct MRT to my work place. And I will usually be able to get a sit. Many of the times, my friends would offer to fetch me home as they were going in the same direction.
|
There are so many more areas that God has blessed me and I thank the Lord and everybody around me.
Thank you.
I am nothing without you; 3:19 PM
(2) comments
Thursday, April 21, 2005
I got scolded during my attachment for not being able to speak teochew. Couldn't even understand what she was saying until somebody told me that the patient was scolding me. Sigh. Sometimes I wonder who is the cause for this. Is it the people who invented multiple languages, is it my parents for not teaching me other languages, or is it just that I am just horrid with languages. Its probably the last reason. The atmosphere in the hospital is very tense. You can feel this thick cloud smothering you every second. It is a horrible feeling.
Thankfully, there are silver linings amidst. The attitude that some elderly have is just fantastic. They return your smiles, or they are always smiling, or they appreciate what you do for them. It just makes you very excited and happy for them. There is hope.
I am nothing without you; 9:38 PM
(1) comments
Sunday, April 17, 2005
When you feel like all the life has been sucked out of your body, you find yourself looking to God. When everything is in a mess and your body is so tired, you look to God for strength. Have I been placing God first? Am i building God's kingdom or have I been building my own. What have I been wasting all my time on?
Better a dry crust with peace and quiet than a house full of feasting, with strife. Proverbs 17:1.
My birthday party was great. Many hands to shake, many gifts to take. I really want to thank everybody for celebrating my 21st with me. I hope everyone knows how much i mean it. So a big THANK YOU to everyone.
Will be back to clinicals tomorrow. It is a long week ahead.
Prayer request:
1. Pray for favour from my clinician.
2. Pray for good time management and discipline to be able to do quiet time.
I am nothing without you; 1:43 PM
(0) comments
Thursday, April 14, 2005
I'm turning 21 today. Not as excited as i normally am for my past other birthdays. However, today marks an important date. I'm getting much more freedom. A joyful and fearful event. It also marks a day where I have decided to give up something for the God i so love. I have broken up with my dearest friend. We were together for quite some time and i did enjoy my time with him. However, it just was not right. That's all I will say for now. I do hope he finds someone better for him and I am thoroughly sorry that I caused him so much hurt. However this is for the best.
I will be having a birthday celebration at my place. I'm really not sure how many people are going to turn up, but i have estimated around 40. The theme is seafood. Will be going down to kill the crabs for later. Havent actually killed one before though.
I woke up this morning with a surprise. I got a red glittery box on my table. Inside, i found a note that said to look under my bed. There i found another identical but smaller box. It told me to look beneath the cross. I went to the cross which was in another room excitedly. There, in a silver box laid my first birthday present for today. Inside this silver box was another glittery red box which was even smaller, inside it was a note written "To Eleanor, Happy 21st Birthday". Beside it was a diamond necklace. It was from my father.
I am nothing without you; 3:56 PM
(0) comments